jxdn - Pray (Official Video)

If you are in emotional distress or suicidal crisis, you are not alone. Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 to speak with a trained counselor. It’s free, confidential, and available 24/7. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
listen to pray: jxdn.lnk.to/pray
Production Company: Infinity Studios ∞
Director: Mooch
Executive Producer: Nolan Riddle
Producer: No Crdntls
Director of Photography: Logan Meis
Steadicam Operator : Aser Santos Jr.
Production Designer: Rick Ramirez
titles: docxiv
Makeup - Melina Farhadi
Styling - Parker Noriega
heaven only knows when i'm in hell
none of my friends can even tell
i wanna fucking die but i never say it
sick of getting high but i do the same shit
i can't even cry so i try to fake it
i hate it
i pray to god let me die in my sleep
i pray to god let me die in my sleep
you're as sick as all the secrets you keep
but the truth is i don't wanna be me
i pray to god let me die in my sleep
now i'm waking up and i'm not dead
living off the words i know you said
i feel like i'm alive and i'm gonna make it
maybe if i cry i don't have to fake it
i'm giving up my pain so you can take it
i hate it
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
i'm as sick as all the secrets i keep
but the truth is i can only be me
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
i pray to god i don't die in my sleep
and now i'm sick of all the secrets i keep
i pray to god let me die in my


  1. jxdn

    jxdn6 months ago

    w my heart & soul i love you donate if you can

  2. Corinne Hawner

    Corinne HawnerDay ago

    I love your music so much. I listen to it all day during school because it makes me happy. You are an amazing singer and songwriter to

  3. Lucy Harumal

    Lucy HarumalMonth ago

    Ilysm Jaden🥺❤

  4. Heba Hasnain

    Heba HasnainMonth ago

    AMAZING SONG! love you jxdn!

  5. Zaynab Ali

    Zaynab AliMonth ago

    So proud of you your music has stopped me from listening to anyone also everyone remember your not alone ❤️😔

  6. Cierra Cook

    Cierra CookMonth ago

    Suicide prevention cause is very important to me because if my dad had known about the hotline he would have been heard

  7. Erick Carr

    Erick Carr5 hours ago

    I’m actually obsessed w ur music 🤧

  8. Gabriela Alvarez

    Gabriela Alvarez12 hours ago


  9. Byron Pollard

    Byron PollardDay ago

    0:51 is When the song actually starts

  10. Stephen Youngstrom

    Stephen YoungstromDay ago

    My that is sad but I am their for ya.

  11. kid . Unknown

    kid . UnknownDay ago

    I love your music dude

  12. Rachel Stewart

    Rachel StewartDay ago

    Awwwww💗💗💗💗💗💗 hope you get better

  13. PCPol

    PCPolDay ago

    "Come on, man up!" "Boys don't cry" "Dry those tears" "Never show your weaknesses" Fuck off

  14. Darina Kulik

    Darina KulikDay ago

    вау классная типа песня

  15. Lyric Ashton

    Lyric AshtonDay ago

    Wow all I can say is wow this is a message and y’all should take it this is jus beatiful🖤⬆️💀

  16. Chelsyvmp Edits

    Chelsyvmp EditsDay ago

    this song hits hard

  17. nissa shamiza

    nissa shamizaDay ago

    I teared up and goosebumps rose ... memories came crashing man

  18. Everyone’sFavoriteSenpai :D

    Everyone’sFavoriteSenpai :D2 days ago

    Thank you for spreading awareness. People joke about dark subjects like suicide and stuff and it honestly pisses me off. They have no fucking clue what people dealing with ACTUAL DEPRESSION FEEL!!! (I’m not depressed) If you are depressed Jxden. And the other’s who see this comment. Just know that my prayers are going out to ya’ll. I hope God is listening. Have a good day/night everyone!!!

  19. Ricca Donaire

    Ricca Donaire2 days ago

    I feel every word in this song. I kinda feel this is for me.

  20. Inna Kudryavtseva

    Inna Kudryavtseva2 days ago

    Не зная перевода, но почувствовала энергетику видео... Теперь пытаюсь успокоится

  21. Sofia Ladushkina

    Sofia Ladushkina2 days ago

    I am crying. God hear us. Thank you very much, dear Jxdn. God is pleased to work

  22. Blanca Hernanz Salso

    Blanca Hernanz Salso2 days ago

    Jaden is the best tiktok boy, no discussion.

  23. M Y

    M Y2 days ago

    I've watched and listened to this so many times. I've been struggling for so long and I'm on medication and I talk to a therapist but I still have the demons in my head with bad thoughts. This is the worst illness ever and so far I just cry in private and pray that things get better only because I know my kids, husband, and family would be devastated if I wasn't here anymore but that doesn't keep the feelings and thoughts away. This hits right at my heart knowing how broken I truly am but I have nobody to talk to that makes me feel better, I'm broken and I'm drowning....doesn't matter how old you are or what you've gone through or what help you get sometimes it's still there. Thanks Jxdn for doing what you do and being you....I know you've got to be helping so many people of all ages and situations.

  24. vickiL1980

    vickiL19802 days ago

    I'm broken. I'm so broken

  25. M Y

    M Y2 days ago

    I feel you on this I truly do...broken and drowning.

  26. Fatima

    Fatima3 days ago

    Reasons to live: “Suicide doesn’t stop the pain,” “It gives it to someone else.” -1: We would miss you -2: It’s worth it to be alive -3: It does get better,believe it or not it will eventually get better. -4: There’s so much you would miss out on doing. -5: You are worth it don’t let anyone,even yourself tell you otherwise. -6: God made you for a reason, you have a reason. -7: There is always a reason to live! -8: So many people care about you -: You are amazing -10: I don’t even know you and I love you -11: I care for you -12: There are plenty of people that love you -13: Youre literally perfect!!

  27. Ariana Dav

    Ariana Dav3 days ago

    I’m proud of you ♥️ I hope you’ll notice 🥺💕

  28. Regina Veit

    Regina Veit3 days ago

    Obrigada por fazer uma música que trate de um tema tão delicado. Meu filho se suicidou em 2003 , aos 19 anos. E bem como tu retratou: tem coisas e segredos que os jovens as vezes não aguentam. Aqui no Brasil, isso é um tabu, estatísticas atrasadas e verdades escondidas. Espero que no teu país não seja assim. Amei tua música. Seja feliz sempre meu querido!

  29. Babyderpking Yt

    Babyderpking Yt3 days ago

    I want to comit suaside

  30. DJMichaelAngelo

    DJMichaelAngelo3 days ago

    amazing video! so powerful & moving

  31. Erola Vinyeta Ferreira

    Erola Vinyeta Ferreira3 days ago

    thank u jaden for trying to save my life, but i can't with more

  32. Kat Hingle

    Kat Hingle3 days ago

    Thank you

  33. Rūta Zvirgzdina

    Rūta Zvirgzdina3 days ago

    I like you 😘😘😘

  34. Bella Marie

    Bella Marie4 days ago

    Hey stay in there Jaden! I know it seems hard right now and it’s ok! You know your friends are always there to talk! I love you

  35. Landry Taylor

    Landry Taylor4 days ago

    Well I’m abt to cry now great 😃

  36. Lana Roger

    Lana Roger4 days ago

    Did the lines he said at the end only make me cry or...

  37. Paola Salgado

    Paola Salgado4 days ago

    Beautiful song

  38. Paola Salgado

    Paola Salgado4 days ago

    This video makes me cry every single time I watch it

  39. Londynn hein

    Londynn hein5 days ago

    Stop saying he not a tik toker he is but he also is a really great/amazing singer

  40. karuiisan

    karuiisan5 days ago

    What the fuck is this I just wanna die

  41. Cam Whyte

    Cam Whyte5 days ago

    doesnt everyone promise it gets better and never does

  42. Merly briz

    Merly briz5 days ago

    ¿Si traspaso a la madre por que no traspaso la puerta ? :v

  43. Trista Evangeline

    Trista Evangeline5 days ago

    the song is so powerful. Such a bop

  44. kiki !!

    kiki !!6 days ago

    damn. tysm for making this, really moving and important to see

  45. Carlie Scollo

    Carlie Scollo6 days ago

    The end made me 🥺🥺😭😭😭

  46. Maya

    Maya6 days ago

    Doesn't this deserve more likes? Literally relatable, I love this!

  47. Lexis Blackwell

    Lexis Blackwell6 days ago

    And this ladies and gents is why I am still her❤️🖤

  48. Jannah Yasser

    Jannah Yasser6 days ago

    2021 ANYONE?

  49. Mariah Reynoldson

    Mariah Reynoldson6 days ago

    Thank u for doing this with ppl who r like me, who have depression, and suicidal thoughts and many other mental health problems

  50. Ana Oliveira

    Ana Oliveira6 days ago

    I just want to say that at 16 I’m going to be dead so there’s only 3 left.

  51. Trinidad Padilla

    Trinidad Padilla7 days ago

    Jaden te ano kazateh kon mikoh y tenkamos 2 ijos😍 azeptas?

  52. Delfina Gimenez

    Delfina Gimenez7 days ago

    Sure you don't read this but thank you really, you're a great rason why I'm still here I love you Jaden ♥

  53. Natalie Marte

    Natalie Marte7 days ago

    I'm here because of Nessa and honestly, I didn't think I would like him as an artist but this was a lot deeper than I thought. I'm really liking his music.

  54. Fatima

    Fatima7 days ago


  55. lamees Fahad

    lamees Fahad7 days ago

    This song when I hear it makes me cry, and his message at the end makes me cry even more

  56. Ruby Kile

    Ruby Kile7 days ago

    I am not whatsoever labeling jxdn as a tiktoker anymore

  57. Liv Grace

    Liv Grace7 days ago

    Right now I'm not scared to kill myself and I need help pls 😭

  58. hanin poops

    hanin poops8 days ago

    "I pray to god that I die in my sleep"

  59. vinous_tomato

    vinous_tomato8 days ago

    Does it really get better, or do we just get better at lying to ourselves?

  60. Angela Mendez

    Angela Mendez8 days ago

    He is really talented he deserves all the HYPEEEEEEEE

  61. Bryan Fleenor

    Bryan Fleenor8 days ago

    I my commented suicide last week 💔💔😭😭

  62. sus boy

    sus boy8 days ago

    i just love this song.

  63. Dina Alcaraz

    Dina Alcaraz8 days ago

    I love you

  64. Alyssa Smallwood

    Alyssa Smallwood8 days ago

    jxdn this has probably saved my life

  65. You know its cath

    You know its cath8 days ago

    I would give money but I dont have any because I'm a 15 year old and I'm in the uk anyway and none of the numbers and therapists I go see I still try I tried 2 days ago I'm sitting in a hospital bed at the moment and the sad thing is I've been on my own because no one could come with me because of covid

  66. Isabella Palmer

    Isabella Palmer8 days ago

    love you jxdn, this is so amazing such a great song!

  67. Marco Bradley

    Marco Bradley8 days ago

    this really had an affect on me, really hurts thank u thank u thank u jaden lov u

  68. froggie 02

    froggie 029 days ago

    start: i pray to god i die in my sleep end: i pray to god i don't die in my sleep

  69. Teddy bearlen

    Teddy bearlen9 days ago

    if you fell that no one loves you your wrong. because god loves you in all they ways you are that's why he made you . Have a good day and just pray to god and maybe try new tallents you never tryed before

  70. Caty

    Caty9 days ago

    bro who TF is cutting onions... chill. p.s. I love you all and deserve the entire world. Stay strong. You are loved. Keep your head high.

  71. Ana !

    Ana !9 days ago

    i really really needed this, you have no idea..

  72. The milk Man

    The milk Man9 days ago

    EEE and EEE

  73. Selenia Schemmel

    Selenia Schemmel9 days ago

    Moi a la recherche de commentaires français

  74. Drew Leach

    Drew Leach10 days ago

    The fact that I lost a close family member due to suicide and then almost lost another to suicide and then I lost a friend who was 15 due to suicide we need to help mental health and stop suicide

  75. Gucci Queen

    Gucci Queen10 days ago

    Wow this was intense

  76. call Ness

    call Ness10 days ago

    I feel that

  77. Joshua Nieves

    Joshua Nieves10 days ago


  78. pluviophile

    pluviophile11 days ago


  79. Caitlin 3600

    Caitlin 360011 days ago


  80. LeafPlays

    LeafPlays11 days ago

    Fun fact: Your reading this right now

  81. lets play titanic, by michael clifford.

    lets play titanic, by michael clifford.Day ago

    wowww :) (not being rude)

  82. pluviophile

    pluviophile11 days ago

    Every SINGLE word is true

  83. Ryen Smith

    Ryen Smith12 days ago

    Love Jaden absolutely love you but you kinda copied this entire idea off of Logic and his song. That's kinda wrong.

  84. Emily Lindraz

    Emily Lindraz12 days ago

    omg, you are so amazing, congratulations, I wish you much success!!✨✨

  85. таня сидяк

    таня сидяк12 days ago

    i`m alone,i wanna die

  86. Benjamin Blaha

    Benjamin Blaha12 days ago

    Man in this song you expressed everything i feel right now

  87. Zeïna Hamri

    Zeïna Hamri12 days ago

    This song has helped me so much on my bad days, ty Jaden💛

  88. Crystal Funk

    Crystal Funk12 days ago

    This song hits so hard. Literally in tears

  89. spooky

    spooky12 days ago

    thank you

  90. pluviophile

    pluviophile13 days ago

    "The 90s made the most depressing music ever." Jxdn: hold my meds.

  91. Gel Gabate

    Gel Gabate13 days ago

    In the context of the video, who died?

  92. Gel Gabate

    Gel Gabate11 days ago

    @emma howe ryt. I thought it was another person who died.

  93. emma howe

    emma howe12 days ago

    what i got from it, jxdn prayed that he would d1e so he did, and now he’s looking at his funeral and parents after etc and regretting it not sure if this was true but hope it helped

  94. edser_editzzz !!

    edser_editzzz !!13 days ago

    1:45 unsaid Emily vibes 🥺

  95. lets play titanic, by michael clifford.

    lets play titanic, by michael clifford.Day ago

    omg yeah from julie and the phantoms! love janden and that show! xx

  96. Yellow Hart

    Yellow Hart14 days ago

    Your damn addictive and hella voice you have fuck 🌟

  97. Martina Floyd

    Martina Floyd14 days ago

    Are you ok jaden I love you

  98. sophiee ch

    sophiee ch14 days ago

    0:50 start

  99. Cool Queen

    Cool Queen15 days ago

    I'm sorry I cryed

  100. Izzati Abdul

    Izzati Abdul15 days ago

    I cannot see this without crying...;(

  101. Milky Cat

    Milky Cat15 days ago

    Damn, this is so sad. So many teenagers like me wanted to commit suicide. Let’s stay strong guys.

  102. lets play titanic, by michael clifford.

    lets play titanic, by michael clifford.Day ago

    i wanted to go but after seeing in this video how many people in my life it would break, i cant do it. we can do it together if we stay strong. x

  103. Milky Cat

    Milky Cat15 days ago

    I’m ready for this

  104. Avianna Surratt

    Avianna Surratt16 days ago

    Your songs have been the most helpful thing ever. I’m a huge fan. You’ll win a Grammy one day. Thankyou.

  105. im may

    im may16 days ago

    Always coming back to this song

  106. Rheam bull

    Rheam bull16 days ago

    I love this song 🔥❤️

  107. Alyssa Morse

    Alyssa Morse17 days ago

    My ex listened to this song when we were together on repeat while I had one of his ear buds and I cried and felt bad bc he wouldn't tell me anything when I promised I'd always be there for him and now some things happened and we can't even talk and I lowkey miss him...

  108. Sky Barber

    Sky Barber17 days ago

    this is the best songggg everrrr

  109. Sofia Grajeda

    Sofia Grajeda17 days ago

    I love

  110. Nick Hossler

    Nick Hossler17 days ago

    5 months ... It seems like yesterday I was crying For this song 🤧

  111. Валерия Козелло

    Валерия Козелло17 days ago

    какой раз я им поражаюсь.... он такой классный! молодец мой мальчик...❤️